A Day’s Thoughts October ’10

imageSunshines through windows.
No, wait… sun shines through windows.
waiting for the sun to shine through to the window of my soul.
wait, no… waiting for the sun to shine through to the window of
my heart.
My Brain is Mush.
My throat is lumps.
I swallow.
My stomach is knots
My heart hurts.
My, My , My,
so sellfish, why?
Blue sky, silver dollars.
silver lining to storm clouds?
Not Blue skies.
More like grey. gray?
Gray is used in England,
They probably know best…
They invented the language, English that is.
And they have gray skies more
than we have grey skies.
still…sunshines through windows.
wait, sun shines through windows. -Bret

Fuck.
Life, Monotonous life.
Sometimes, Something, Somewhere happens.
You know it won’t last forever…
But still, you grasp on.
you still grasp on.
you can’t let go.
Let go.
It’s over.
Listen to your Mind.
When is your heart ever Right…?
You fight…you Lose.
you win.
The Balance must end Positively…
Physics agrees.
Fuck physics, Fuck Math, Fuck science.
What about Love?
-Bret

I stand under Golden leaved Trees.
They Hang on to shades of green.
Plum, crimson, orange-burnt.
They hang onto branches…
Fluttering, Floating, Falling.
Autumn smells.
Time tells all.
We all tell time.
Hurry up!
Slow Down.
Which is it.
exquisite nature
Blows warm Breezes
Through Blades of Grassy Hills.
Sun; spills Rays about Gently
They dance.
-Bret

Today the 30th (’09/’11)

imageRemember when life was so simple
The smile a child so bright.
No Fear of living a burden
No fear of what’s wrong and what’s right.
The Plight
Your own expectations
of those around you
of G-D.
To show what’s inside your heart
To know it’s all a facade.
All of us know that it’s close
What- we don’t know what it is,
somewhere over the rainbow
a place where we can be kids.
So Why does life push so hard
to struggle for meaning a gift
to know that it lives deep inside
so why are the walls closing in?
To know That the skies limit endless
to wake up and not see the change
trying to search for redemption
Wisdom the blindness of age.
Remember when things were so simple
The only thing mattered was love..
I pray for the day things are simple
When we can all live with light from above.

Call Out

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I cry out,
He answers…
Every answer.
Strength, please guide me.
Lord God, he ate.
Knowledge of Both good and Evil.
Reality beckons it’s cold grasp.
Dreamstate, Thy kingdom to come.
I beg for your favor.
Misdeeds in the hearts of man.
Maze like riddle i climb to you.
To hold your gentle compassion.
Ease the folly of time, yet endless.
A loop created. A Mind.
Opened to other… Ether
Either we jump or fall…
Falling deeply..
Holding on.
Letting go.
We all as one.
Together.

Soul Party

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 The wind rustles sweet
     nothings window pane lonely room.
My old friend nostalgia of a time and
     place that may or may not have
existed.
     I speak between shadows and cast doubt
about the foot of hope
     and throw a party to pity myself.
Only i am invited.
     I bring nothing empty handed.
Eyes closed we dream.
     I feel a connection to the universe.
I am Alive.
     I am here.  It is now. The clock strikes out of
sight. Mind races.
     Rat races. Ten paces and keep
Running. Away from here so far.
     That i am back to square.
One Love. One life per body.
     One soul for eternity. Have we
met?
     I haven’t touched you since
creation. Atoms dense expanding
     space. Matter of fact, or fiction.
You decide When it’s right or left.
     Standing here sitting. Nonetheless
is more.  Forever. Infinity. A loop
     we travel. And here we are. Back
again. So buttons.